OMG!
don't ask...
this weekend, eo lang mga kinain ko:
ano nanotice nyo? lahat sila ay yelo/malamig. yan lang talaga inaccept ng tyan ko. as in no kahit ano. except pala kagabi, na super tempting nung sinigang na baboy, and super gutom na ako. hehe. magdadala nga ako sa dorm ng ice tray eh. haha. ice ice baby. haha. :P darn. siguro nagffreeze up na yung internal system ko. yak, jowk lang. haha. what a logical statement.
ay tae! naalala ko na yung other reason kung abkit ako badtrip. saturday, wasn't allowed to train for tkd and sunday mei laban. ayun. hindi ako kasama. argh. sayang, hakot sana ng medal yun. amph. tkd tkd tkd tkd... my life... wah...
at badtrip din na... wala ako sa comsci today, dapat ako maghahands on eh. wala ako sa chem today, mei lab expt. wala ako sa bio, irerelease na daw yung grades. wala ako sa PE, argh yun. wala ako sa english, mei results na ba?. wala ako sa pinoy, mei results na noh?. at wala ako whole day para maggreeet ng mga staff for cocc. argh naman. amph. badtrip. at mei kkwento si jao, kaso wala ako. amph.
at patalo tong holter na toh. parang malaking walkman. haha. oh well, i'm hungry na. i want lots of ice... now!!!
flabberghasting. naks. haha. anyway, absent ako ngayon. kinabitan ako ng holter to monitor my tiny itsy-bitsy heart. hehe. hindi ko nakita si marty this entire weekend. ay, nakita ko sya, pero paalis sya at sinasama nya ako, pero nakapambahay pa ako. tsaka i was hardly home din eh. laging nasa hospital. ay, tae, sa hospital, mei nurse na nagPDA! shet! ahaha. :P dumdidumdum... anyway, ayun, hindi ko man lang nakabonding si marty. hmph. kasi saturday nagtraining sya ng badminton. tapos mei lakad sya. idadate ata syota nya. hmph. seryoso, kakaselos din yun. seeing kung pano magpakagentleman yung pagong na yun. kakainlove, tae! pero ibang selos ung naramdaman ko. yung selos na tipong "ako bestfriend mo, pwede mo palitan yan, pero walang ibang magttyaga sayo like i did, paks." pero anyway, masaya sya. or so he says. sana nga mainlove ka na ng tuluyan dyan. so yan yung unang pagkabadtrip ko. next was when my mom told me na hindi ako makakapasok today. amph yun. tapos sa wednesday afternoon din. so argh. wala akong PE. noooo!!! super argh.
pero as things couldn't get any worse, some things just got better. ewan ko. pero right now i'm so0o0o confused. kinausap ko si jao tungkol dito, and super thank you! sobra! kaw talaga yung adviser ko. since first year pa. shet. haha. ang galing. pero astig talaga. ay mali, hindi pala ako confused. just scared. super scared...
onga pala, kahit i wasn't allowed to go out, pinayagan ako ng mom ko sunduin si marty mamaya sa sbc. whole day sila today at sure enough, wala syang time makipagdate sa syota nya. ahaha. *evil smirk*... haha, lagot ka sakin, kakalbuhin kita. haha. pero alam nyang gmei problema ako. super sorry nga daw kasi hindi nya ako nakausap. kala pa nya galit ako. sus, pong, what's got in to you? parang hindi mo ako kilala ah. sige. ganyanan. deh, hehe... hay...
lately, i haven't thought about him. it's been a long time, and ayokong isipin, pero like someone told me, parang hindi ko na ata sya mahal. two years is an awfully long time to move on. pero the mere fact na naisip ko yun, it's like saying na dun din pupunta yun. so ewan, konting time pa. ulitin ko sinabi ni kuya zab that fateful friday, "time lang mawawala din yung pain." naks. and yun tumatak sa utak ko for the longest time.
hay. weird. basta, weird. ang gulo. wah. naguguluhan ako. wah. wah. wah...
Think of me
think of me fondly,
when we've said goodbye.
Remember me
once in a while -
please promise me
you'll try.
When you find
that, once
again, you long
to take your heart back
and be free -
if you
ever find
a moment,
spare a thought
for me
We never said
our love
was evergreen,
or as unchanging
as the sea -
but if
you can still
remember
stop and think
of me . . .
Think of all the things
we've shared and seen -
don't think about the things
which might have been . . .
Think of me,
think of me waking,
silent and
resigned.
Imagine me,
trying too hard
to put you
from my mind.
Recall those days
look back
on all those times,
think of the things
we'll never do -
there will
never be
a day, when
I won't think
of you . .
We never said
our love
was evergreen,
or as unchanging
as the sea -
but please
promise me,
that sometimes
you will think of me!
grabe. adik na ako sa Phantom of the Opera movie. yey for the movie. ssuper kakaadik sya. ewan, siguro kasi musical sya and it definitely fits my type. hehe. except yung singing, everyone knows i'm no good singer. hehe. anyway, ang dami kong pictures ng phantom, well, kinunan ko sya habang nagpplay yung movie. and balak ko sya ilagay dito. lahat ng kinuha kong pics have significant meaning for me. as in deeper meaning. and somehow, i know na kapag kwinento ko kung kani-kanino, hindi lang maiintiindihan.
anyway, absent na naman ako sa tkd training. amph. ang tanging inaasahan kong mapapagrelease-an ng stress ko, bawal pa. i also had my 3rd blood extraction these past two weeks. amph. argh. bakit ganun? ang daya naman.
hmm... pasado na math grade ko sa card. pinagalitan ako ng mom ko, kasi nung una mataas tenta ko, tapos biglang naging 2.25, then 2.5. sabi nya hindi ko daw kaya maghandle ng pressure at stress. argh. sya kaya sa pwesto ko? she doesn't know what it's like to have your heart beat more than it should at she doesn't know how it feels to get sudden cramps, mawalan ng gana, etc...
went to glorietta nga pala kahapon with her. kumain kami sa sizzler and i hardly ate. three days na ako hindi kumakain ng kahit anong meal. hindi ko trip eh. walang gana palagi. argh. kahit nagccrave ko, pagdating, ayaw ko na. amph yun. ay, tapos nakita ko ulit yung big garfield... sabi ng dad ko bibilhin nya daw yun for me, pero parang super labo. haha. titigilan ko na pagiging maluho ko. not good for my health. ay, nga pala!!! kasi di ba sabi ko nagpadala ng soymilk dad ko? hindi pala sya half box. isa't kalahati pala!!! haha. kasi dalawa yung boxes na padala nya, full of really neat stuff. yey for the soymilk! yumyumyum.. :P
manonood nga pala kami ng Click mamaya. sabi ng mom ko isama daw namin si marty at mga kapatid nya. mom, nililigawan mo ba si tikoy? :P haha. anyway, uhm, ayun, this week, cool.
nakakausap ko na si jem! hehe. at kung gusto nyo pa ng mas madramang post, hiramin nyo kay labli yung red diary namin. haha. perro seryoso ung mga nakalagay dun. haha.
ang dami ko gusto sabihin ngayon, pero knowing na medyo kalat na yung blog ko, wag na lang. secrets are meant to be kept. haha. that's my rule. hehe. hay. bakit ganun? ewan... never mind...
kagabi nga pala, 1:30 na ako natulog. tapos kelangan ko gumising ng 4am kasi hinatid namin si zharyne sa school and kelangan andun sya before 5am. eh walang driver, so sumabay na ako sa kanila. so 5am, nasa lab na ako ng st.patrick's. at yun nga, blood test again. napapagod na ako. feeling ko super hindi ko na kaya. wah. jao, help! -_- pagod na ako...
anyway, kahapon, super saya ko nung last few hours ko sa pisay. hehe. nakita ko crush ko!!! at nakasama for a while. pero symepre hindi solo. haha. nakiepal lang ako sa kanila. haha. magkaklase si someone at sya eh. hehe. pero super saya. pramis!!! as in abot tenga ulit ngiti ko. haha. haaay... yak, first time ko toh maobsess sa pagkacrush sa isang 07. haha. kahapon birthday ni gem! at dahil sa kanya, inapproach ko si jem at nagtanong ng number. hehe. yey gem! dumdidumdum... hay. grabe. less than 4hrs of sleep. weee...
wish i could turn back time and straighten out all wrongs. pero it's wrong to wish for that. God made things His way and going back in time is definitely not one of His.
sakit na ng mata ko... super...
ang saya ko. tumawag si marty bigla. akala ko pa naman naging jigsaw puzzle pieces phone nya. naayos daw nya. idol ko talaga yun. pero ewan ko, kahit nasabi ko na sa kanya, at mababasa nya ulit dito... ewan ko, nawiwindang ako. kasi kanina nung kausap ko sya, parang nag-iisip ako inside. kung maging kami, ready ba ako for that "drastic" change? tingin ko hindi. so for the nth time, sasabihin ko na wala talagang mangyayari kung maging kami. and for the (n-1)th time, babawiin ko toh at sasabihin na love will find a way. kaso hindi ko alam. mahal ko ba sya? ayokong maging last resort sya at ayoko maging last resort nya ako. pero eto. mei syota na sya ngayon. as in two weeks na. hindi nya daw ganun kamahal, pero cute daw kasi. at knowing marty, kaya nya pasagutin ang mga girls na matripan nya. eto ha:
o ha! san ka pa???
hehe... hay naku tikoy. ano na mangyayari? tapos mei kwinento ako sa kanya tungkol sa nangyari kanina. tama sya. play it cool. why do i still give a damn about the past? there's no way i can change the past, and there is definitely no way the past can be the present. spelling pa lang iba na, pano pa kaya sa actual meaning di ba? pero pramis marty, tama ka. saludo talaga ako sayo. bakit ang galing mo? ha? bakit ang galing-galing mo? kagatin kita eh! :D sabi pa nya hindi totoo ang magic. ako ang totoo. lahat ng nangyari sa buhay ko totoo. yun ang dapat harapin. not the mere magic.
anyway, for the zillionth time, sasabihin ko, you'll only realize how much you care for a person when that person is gone and you cannot do a single thing to bring him back. *sigh* right now, nakatapat yung aircon sa kamay ko, at ang lamig. nasa 295K yung tempterature at super numb ng kamay ko. kanina nakahiga ako, trying to read Iliad, but in vain. tapos ayun, sa sobrang lamig, kelangan ko magtago under the comforter. and wala lang, i was like expecting somebody to appear out of thin air and give me a hug, or at the very least offer me hot chocolate para mawala yung ginaw. (eto yung part ng kwento ko kay marty na sinabi nyang walang magic. at alam nya kung ano ibig ko sabihin kaya nagbitaw na naman sya ng makabagbag-damdamin nyang wika.) hay marty, ang labo ng buhay natin noh? mei gf ka na, ako naman masaya kahit wala. ay meron, tkd. tkd ang buhay ko. tkd ang nagpapaikot ng mundo ko. tkd ang syang nais ko. yikes, okay, tama na, masyado na ako naiinfluence ni marty. haha. :P
pero seryoso, nakakalungkot din yung hindi ka sanay na walang textmate noh? yung wala ka itetext pag nanonood ka ng spooky movie, yung wala kang masandalan na more than a friend and more than a dad. *sigh* di bale, someday, someone will come along. wag lang ngayon. di ba marty? tsaka na, pag alam ko na kung saan papunta yung buhay ko. hehe. tinanong ako ni yogi (riyo), "o, bakit? asan na yung sadistang zye? yung palaban lagi?" sagot ko "nakay choi." silent understanding. like marty, alam nya mga problema ko sa buhay. though not even half of it. tapos wala lang, sabi nya "alam mo, kausapin mo ang ate. yun ang madaming masasabing hindi mo aakalaing makakatulong sayo." hay. so now i have to go to batangas and have another bonding session with ma'amsami. well, i really miss the team.
anyway, still feels weird. ewan. argh. anyone please give me a hug? or kahit cup of hot chocolate lang pwede na. pero hug na lang, para libre di ba? walang gastos. hay. loving doesn't hhave to be so maluho. love is love as is. jst give what you can, but give it your best shot. love doesn't ask anything more than what it needs. simply love. *sigh*
pero love isn't the only thing that matters right now. mr. College is there, too! and guess what? that's bigger than love. though not as powerful, but it weighs bigger as of today. college and love met at a road intersection and college said "go find what you're looking for elsewhere, you suck'o!" haha. great. now i'm amusing myself. stop na.
i wonder if the jellyfish that fly is really called a hydra...
astig.. nagsscan ako ng channels ng tv dito, then napunta ako sa cinema one. shet! saktong nagsstart yung Ang TV the Movie (Ibong Adarna) ! shet. hanggang ngayon yun pa rin palabas. shet. wah! one of my all-time favorites! so tinext ko si kuya kelroy. yak, kunwari close kami. hehe. buti sunday ngayon. at wala syang anything so nagreply sya! at kung makikita nyo ako ngayion, super abot-tenga ngiti ko. hehe. :D shet. hanggang ngayon katext ko sya. shet. papa! wafu wafu!! shet. *faint!* haha. :D tapos sama daw ako one time kina kuya jamyr pag pupunta sila sa gig ng brainwash. tapos jowk jowk na sparring daw kami. wahaha. :D pro yun eh! wahaha. shet! he's realy nice. kaso ang tanda na. 22? uh-oh. no-no yun. hehe. basta ayun. tapos sabi nya nagUPCAT din daw sa dati kaso parang hindi nya talaga priority ang college. pero astig. family person sya. shet! san ka pa? aaww. gusto ko yung ganung guy. ayan, malapit na matapos yung movie. super pambata sya eh. no anything about lovelife. just plain virtues and other moral values. :D pero gusto ko pa rin hanggang ngayon. pati yung Batang X at Magic Temple. hehe. mga mabababaw pero super gaganda. :D anyway, dazed pa ako. hehe. kelroy forever! yihee! haha. :D
ay, nga pala, thursday, galing ako sa pcmc, blood test ulit. argh, walang katapusan. tapos ayun, mataas sodium level ko, and super baba ng calcium. duh. which just shows why i can't carry my food tray without hurting my wrists. or why i feel like my bones are about to break anytime. haha. oh well... antagal ng mom ko magtext at gutom na ako. 12:10 na!!! im hungry. feed me!
eto super ironic. gustong gusto ko ang iliad, but, unlike he who i admire with his knowledge in mythology, hate ko talaga ang mythology. siguro kasi nirequire sya. ewan. and another ironic thing is that no matter how much i understand iliad, i still got a 3/15 last time. yey! pero promise. super saya nya basahin. it's really funny, how the gods look like mga epal na kelangan pa bigyan ng offerings just to help you win the war. shallow as it may seem, trojan war still marked history. well, for the iliad. hehe.
"better for me, without you, to take cold earth for mantle..." -andromakhe.
ahaha. wala lang. super fun. what if i never went to pisay? want if i stayed at sbc? hmm... for sure naging kami ni adi. haha. then ni marty. pero hindi rin. tingin ko, being in pisay made my friendship with marty stronger. hmm.. pero doesn't really matter. hehe. pero if i never went to pisay, i would never meet, ahm, all the people i met. and siguro naging kikay girl ako. and si labli! hindi ko nakilala. hmm... but what if went back to sbc nung third year? hmm... ayaw. no way. narealize ko lang, kahit mahal ko ang sbc, mas mahal ko ang pisay. naks. deh, kasi ewan, kahit anong sabihin ko, sa pisay ko nakilala sarili ko. maybe. ewan. hehe. dugong bridgetine pa rin!
shit! ouch! natusok gums ko. ouch! damn! argh. ouch.
waw. almost three hrs na ako online. yeah. sulitin. hehe. bakit kasi wala akong 02jam dito eh. arrr naman. oh well... ayan, nawala na yung gana ko magpost. hehe. sige, magbabasa na lang muna ako ng iliad. yey! ^^,
ayan, hell week part 2. super maingat ako this week. kasi twice na umattack sakit ko and pag nag-attack ulit, kelangan ko na maconfine. whew. so no junkies this week, no beer, no smoke, no too much oil, no too much cholesterol, no too much stress... oops, mali, never mind the last no-no. haha. pisay toh man! you can't tell me that. haha. :P
gumawa nga pala kami ni labli ng RED DIARY. haha. bakit yun ang title? well, first of all, it's covered with red gift wrapper. and green minded si labli kaya naisip ko yun. tumawa kayo! jowk yun! ahaha. green-minded si labli pero ako nakaisip ng title na same as the movie with super obscene set up. oi, hindi ko napanood yun ha! asa kayo! ahaha. yak, naalala ko si adi, gusto daw nya manood ng hibla nung elem kami. yak! ahaha. ahahaha. teka. okay, tama na.
weee.. namimiss ko na ang sbc tkd. 2nd week without training. at dahil dito, hindi ako pwede sumali sa laban next week. Screw UPCAT! darn. amph. tae. i'd rather kick some butt than waste my timeon something i need to but neer really wanted. gets nyo ba ako? hehe. basta badtrip ako. gusto ko na mabugbog at mambugbog! super sayan mode dapat ngayon eh! amph. at hindi ko na ulit maala forms ko! at august na! soon enough, magiging september na! then october! wah!!!! no! tkd tkd tkd tkd. praning si zye. tkd tkd tkd tkd.!
...alive and kicking!
gusto ko gumawa ng movie review, pero... ahm... sige na nga! hehe. so eto yun, uhm, teka lang, toothbrush lang ako. :P.............. ayan. game. uhm, kasi parang mei couple (not yet married), tapos nagkaron sila ng super big fight. so for many weeks, nagpapakita sila ng kahit anong bitchy thing na pwede nila gawin para mainis yung isa. tapos one time, parang nagsoften up yung girl and niyaya nya yung guy (indirectly) na pumunta sa concert na i think they both liked. kaso hindi nakapunta yung guy, duh, they broke up, so wala syang obligation. pero the girl was expecting otherwise. akala nya pupunta yung guy. so nadisappoint sya and umiyak sya. aw. (nga pala, nakakatuwa si bona! palibhasa in love nakasmile sya all throughout. haha. :P) tapos ayun, nag-usap sila. then turn naman nung guy para magpakita ng move. kaso akala nya date ni brooke yung gwapo guy. so ayun, nahurt din sya. aw. sad talaga. tapos (omg!) sinabi na nung guy na mahal nya yung girl, kaso yung girl parang naguguluhan na. sabi nya "i don't think i feel the same way" blah blah. tapos super sad. pero ndi yan yung line na favorite ko ha! though same scene. ahaha. kami ni jason naman paulit-ulit namin sinasabi na "o di ba? tama kami! LOVE SUCKS!" tapos si alden smile lang ng smile. si bona talaga mei pinakanakakagagong smile eh. tipong pagtumingin ka sa kanya, masasabi mo kung ano/sino iniisip nya. ***. ahaha :P anyway, the last scene nung movie was the most kilig part. yak, konyo. ahaha. eh kasi nagwink yung guy sa girl tapos biglang sumigaw si jason ng "LOVE SUCKS!" eh ang lakas. haha. tapos mei couple sa likod namin, sabi nung girl "sshh!" ahaha. wala lang, i really like guys who wink. mei dating eh. wah! naalala ko tuloy nung few days after dorm akwe last year. haha. mei gwapong nagwink sakin. gwapo gwapo gwapo! :P pero moving on, the principle of impenetrability may be proved wrong. bahala kayo intindihin yan.
amph. argh. brrr.
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OMG!
don't ask...
this weekend, eo lang mga kinain ko:
ano nanotice nyo? lahat sila ay yelo/malamig. yan lang talaga inaccept ng tyan ko. as in no kahit ano. except pala kagabi, na super tempting nung sinigang na baboy, and super gutom na ako. hehe. magdadala nga ako sa dorm ng ice tray eh. haha. ice ice baby. haha. :P darn. siguro nagffreeze up na yung internal system ko. yak, jowk lang. haha. what a logical statement.
ay tae! naalala ko na yung other reason kung abkit ako badtrip. saturday, wasn't allowed to train for tkd and sunday mei laban. ayun. hindi ako kasama. argh. sayang, hakot sana ng medal yun. amph. tkd tkd tkd tkd... my life... wah...
at badtrip din na... wala ako sa comsci today, dapat ako maghahands on eh. wala ako sa chem today, mei lab expt. wala ako sa bio, irerelease na daw yung grades. wala ako sa PE, argh yun. wala ako sa english, mei results na ba?. wala ako sa pinoy, mei results na noh?. at wala ako whole day para maggreeet ng mga staff for cocc. argh naman. amph. badtrip. at mei kkwento si jao, kaso wala ako. amph.
at patalo tong holter na toh. parang malaking walkman. haha. oh well, i'm hungry na. i want lots of ice... now!!!
flabberghasting. naks. haha. anyway, absent ako ngayon. kinabitan ako ng holter to monitor my tiny itsy-bitsy heart. hehe. hindi ko nakita si marty this entire weekend. ay, nakita ko sya, pero paalis sya at sinasama nya ako, pero nakapambahay pa ako. tsaka i was hardly home din eh. laging nasa hospital. ay, tae, sa hospital, mei nurse na nagPDA! shet! ahaha. :P dumdidumdum... anyway, ayun, hindi ko man lang nakabonding si marty. hmph. kasi saturday nagtraining sya ng badminton. tapos mei lakad sya. idadate ata syota nya. hmph. seryoso, kakaselos din yun. seeing kung pano magpakagentleman yung pagong na yun. kakainlove, tae! pero ibang selos ung naramdaman ko. yung selos na tipong "ako bestfriend mo, pwede mo palitan yan, pero walang ibang magttyaga sayo like i did, paks." pero anyway, masaya sya. or so he says. sana nga mainlove ka na ng tuluyan dyan. so yan yung unang pagkabadtrip ko. next was when my mom told me na hindi ako makakapasok today. amph yun. tapos sa wednesday afternoon din. so argh. wala akong PE. noooo!!! super argh.
pero as things couldn't get any worse, some things just got better. ewan ko. pero right now i'm so0o0o confused. kinausap ko si jao tungkol dito, and super thank you! sobra! kaw talaga yung adviser ko. since first year pa. shet. haha. ang galing. pero astig talaga. ay mali, hindi pala ako confused. just scared. super scared...
onga pala, kahit i wasn't allowed to go out, pinayagan ako ng mom ko sunduin si marty mamaya sa sbc. whole day sila today at sure enough, wala syang time makipagdate sa syota nya. ahaha. *evil smirk*... haha, lagot ka sakin, kakalbuhin kita. haha. pero alam nyang gmei problema ako. super sorry nga daw kasi hindi nya ako nakausap. kala pa nya galit ako. sus, pong, what's got in to you? parang hindi mo ako kilala ah. sige. ganyanan. deh, hehe... hay...
lately, i haven't thought about him. it's been a long time, and ayokong isipin, pero like someone told me, parang hindi ko na ata sya mahal. two years is an awfully long time to move on. pero the mere fact na naisip ko yun, it's like saying na dun din pupunta yun. so ewan, konting time pa. ulitin ko sinabi ni kuya zab that fateful friday, "time lang mawawala din yung pain." naks. and yun tumatak sa utak ko for the longest time.
hay. weird. basta, weird. ang gulo. wah. naguguluhan ako. wah. wah. wah...
Think of me
think of me fondly,
when we've said goodbye.
Remember me
once in a while -
please promise me
you'll try.
When you find
that, once
again, you long
to take your heart back
and be free -
if you
ever find
a moment,
spare a thought
for me
We never said
our love
was evergreen,
or as unchanging
as the sea -
but if
you can still
remember
stop and think
of me . . .
Think of all the things
we've shared and seen -
don't think about the things
which might have been . . .
Think of me,
think of me waking,
silent and
resigned.
Imagine me,
trying too hard
to put you
from my mind.
Recall those days
look back
on all those times,
think of the things
we'll never do -
there will
never be
a day, when
I won't think
of you . .
We never said
our love
was evergreen,
or as unchanging
as the sea -
but please
promise me,
that sometimes
you will think of me!
grabe. adik na ako sa Phantom of the Opera movie. yey for the movie. ssuper kakaadik sya. ewan, siguro kasi musical sya and it definitely fits my type. hehe. except yung singing, everyone knows i'm no good singer. hehe. anyway, ang dami kong pictures ng phantom, well, kinunan ko sya habang nagpplay yung movie. and balak ko sya ilagay dito. lahat ng kinuha kong pics have significant meaning for me. as in deeper meaning. and somehow, i know na kapag kwinento ko kung kani-kanino, hindi lang maiintiindihan.
anyway, absent na naman ako sa tkd training. amph. ang tanging inaasahan kong mapapagrelease-an ng stress ko, bawal pa. i also had my 3rd blood extraction these past two weeks. amph. argh. bakit ganun? ang daya naman.
hmm... pasado na math grade ko sa card. pinagalitan ako ng mom ko, kasi nung una mataas tenta ko, tapos biglang naging 2.25, then 2.5. sabi nya hindi ko daw kaya maghandle ng pressure at stress. argh. sya kaya sa pwesto ko? she doesn't know what it's like to have your heart beat more than it should at she doesn't know how it feels to get sudden cramps, mawalan ng gana, etc...
went to glorietta nga pala kahapon with her. kumain kami sa sizzler and i hardly ate. three days na ako hindi kumakain ng kahit anong meal. hindi ko trip eh. walang gana palagi. argh. kahit nagccrave ko, pagdating, ayaw ko na. amph yun. ay, tapos nakita ko ulit yung big garfield... sabi ng dad ko bibilhin nya daw yun for me, pero parang super labo. haha. titigilan ko na pagiging maluho ko. not good for my health. ay, nga pala!!! kasi di ba sabi ko nagpadala ng soymilk dad ko? hindi pala sya half box. isa't kalahati pala!!! haha. kasi dalawa yung boxes na padala nya, full of really neat stuff. yey for the soymilk! yumyumyum.. :P
manonood nga pala kami ng Click mamaya. sabi ng mom ko isama daw namin si marty at mga kapatid nya. mom, nililigawan mo ba si tikoy? :P haha. anyway, uhm, ayun, this week, cool.
nakakausap ko na si jem! hehe. at kung gusto nyo pa ng mas madramang post, hiramin nyo kay labli yung red diary namin. haha. perro seryoso ung mga nakalagay dun. haha.
ang dami ko gusto sabihin ngayon, pero knowing na medyo kalat na yung blog ko, wag na lang. secrets are meant to be kept. haha. that's my rule. hehe. hay. bakit ganun? ewan... never mind...
kagabi nga pala, 1:30 na ako natulog. tapos kelangan ko gumising ng 4am kasi hinatid namin si zharyne sa school and kelangan andun sya before 5am. eh walang driver, so sumabay na ako sa kanila. so 5am, nasa lab na ako ng st.patrick's. at yun nga, blood test again. napapagod na ako. feeling ko super hindi ko na kaya. wah. jao, help! -_- pagod na ako...
anyway, kahapon, super saya ko nung last few hours ko sa pisay. hehe. nakita ko crush ko!!! at nakasama for a while. pero symepre hindi solo. haha. nakiepal lang ako sa kanila. haha. magkaklase si someone at sya eh. hehe. pero super saya. pramis!!! as in abot tenga ulit ngiti ko. haha. haaay... yak, first time ko toh maobsess sa pagkacrush sa isang 07. haha. kahapon birthday ni gem! at dahil sa kanya, inapproach ko si jem at nagtanong ng number. hehe. yey gem! dumdidumdum... hay. grabe. less than 4hrs of sleep. weee...
wish i could turn back time and straighten out all wrongs. pero it's wrong to wish for that. God made things His way and going back in time is definitely not one of His.
sakit na ng mata ko... super...
ang saya ko. tumawag si marty bigla. akala ko pa naman naging jigsaw puzzle pieces phone nya. naayos daw nya. idol ko talaga yun. pero ewan ko, kahit nasabi ko na sa kanya, at mababasa nya ulit dito... ewan ko, nawiwindang ako. kasi kanina nung kausap ko sya, parang nag-iisip ako inside. kung maging kami, ready ba ako for that "drastic" change? tingin ko hindi. so for the nth time, sasabihin ko na wala talagang mangyayari kung maging kami. and for the (n-1)th time, babawiin ko toh at sasabihin na love will find a way. kaso hindi ko alam. mahal ko ba sya? ayokong maging last resort sya at ayoko maging last resort nya ako. pero eto. mei syota na sya ngayon. as in two weeks na. hindi nya daw ganun kamahal, pero cute daw kasi. at knowing marty, kaya nya pasagutin ang mga girls na matripan nya. eto ha:
o ha! san ka pa???
hehe... hay naku tikoy. ano na mangyayari? tapos mei kwinento ako sa kanya tungkol sa nangyari kanina. tama sya. play it cool. why do i still give a damn about the past? there's no way i can change the past, and there is definitely no way the past can be the present. spelling pa lang iba na, pano pa kaya sa actual meaning di ba? pero pramis marty, tama ka. saludo talaga ako sayo. bakit ang galing mo? ha? bakit ang galing-galing mo? kagatin kita eh! :D sabi pa nya hindi totoo ang magic. ako ang totoo. lahat ng nangyari sa buhay ko totoo. yun ang dapat harapin. not the mere magic.
anyway, for the zillionth time, sasabihin ko, you'll only realize how much you care for a person when that person is gone and you cannot do a single thing to bring him back. *sigh* right now, nakatapat yung aircon sa kamay ko, at ang lamig. nasa 295K yung tempterature at super numb ng kamay ko. kanina nakahiga ako, trying to read Iliad, but in vain. tapos ayun, sa sobrang lamig, kelangan ko magtago under the comforter. and wala lang, i was like expecting somebody to appear out of thin air and give me a hug, or at the very least offer me hot chocolate para mawala yung ginaw. (eto yung part ng kwento ko kay marty na sinabi nyang walang magic. at alam nya kung ano ibig ko sabihin kaya nagbitaw na naman sya ng makabagbag-damdamin nyang wika.) hay marty, ang labo ng buhay natin noh? mei gf ka na, ako naman masaya kahit wala. ay meron, tkd. tkd ang buhay ko. tkd ang nagpapaikot ng mundo ko. tkd ang syang nais ko. yikes, okay, tama na, masyado na ako naiinfluence ni marty. haha. :P
pero seryoso, nakakalungkot din yung hindi ka sanay na walang textmate noh? yung wala ka itetext pag nanonood ka ng spooky movie, yung wala kang masandalan na more than a friend and more than a dad. *sigh* di bale, someday, someone will come along. wag lang ngayon. di ba marty? tsaka na, pag alam ko na kung saan papunta yung buhay ko. hehe. tinanong ako ni yogi (riyo), "o, bakit? asan na yung sadistang zye? yung palaban lagi?" sagot ko "nakay choi." silent understanding. like marty, alam nya mga problema ko sa buhay. though not even half of it. tapos wala lang, sabi nya "alam mo, kausapin mo ang ate. yun ang madaming masasabing hindi mo aakalaing makakatulong sayo." hay. so now i have to go to batangas and have another bonding session with ma'amsami. well, i really miss the team.
anyway, still feels weird. ewan. argh. anyone please give me a hug? or kahit cup of hot chocolate lang pwede na. pero hug na lang, para libre di ba? walang gastos. hay. loving doesn't hhave to be so maluho. love is love as is. jst give what you can, but give it your best shot. love doesn't ask anything more than what it needs. simply love. *sigh*
pero love isn't the only thing that matters right now. mr. College is there, too! and guess what? that's bigger than love. though not as powerful, but it weighs bigger as of today. college and love met at a road intersection and college said "go find what you're looking for elsewhere, you suck'o!" haha. great. now i'm amusing myself. stop na.
i wonder if the jellyfish that fly is really called a hydra...
astig.. nagsscan ako ng channels ng tv dito, then napunta ako sa cinema one. shet! saktong nagsstart yung Ang TV the Movie (Ibong Adarna) ! shet. hanggang ngayon yun pa rin palabas. shet. wah! one of my all-time favorites! so tinext ko si kuya kelroy. yak, kunwari close kami. hehe. buti sunday ngayon. at wala syang anything so nagreply sya! at kung makikita nyo ako ngayion, super abot-tenga ngiti ko. hehe. :D shet. hanggang ngayon katext ko sya. shet. papa! wafu wafu!! shet. *faint!* haha. :D tapos sama daw ako one time kina kuya jamyr pag pupunta sila sa gig ng brainwash. tapos jowk jowk na sparring daw kami. wahaha. :D pro yun eh! wahaha. shet! he's realy nice. kaso ang tanda na. 22? uh-oh. no-no yun. hehe. basta ayun. tapos sabi nya nagUPCAT din daw sa dati kaso parang hindi nya talaga priority ang college. pero astig. family person sya. shet! san ka pa? aaww. gusto ko yung ganung guy. ayan, malapit na matapos yung movie. super pambata sya eh. no anything about lovelife. just plain virtues and other moral values. :D pero gusto ko pa rin hanggang ngayon. pati yung Batang X at Magic Temple. hehe. mga mabababaw pero super gaganda. :D anyway, dazed pa ako. hehe. kelroy forever! yihee! haha. :D
ay, nga pala, thursday, galing ako sa pcmc, blood test ulit. argh, walang katapusan. tapos ayun, mataas sodium level ko, and super baba ng calcium. duh. which just shows why i can't carry my food tray without hurting my wrists. or why i feel like my bones are about to break anytime. haha. oh well... antagal ng mom ko magtext at gutom na ako. 12:10 na!!! im hungry. feed me!
eto super ironic. gustong gusto ko ang iliad, but, unlike he who i admire with his knowledge in mythology, hate ko talaga ang mythology. siguro kasi nirequire sya. ewan. and another ironic thing is that no matter how much i understand iliad, i still got a 3/15 last time. yey! pero promise. super saya nya basahin. it's really funny, how the gods look like mga epal na kelangan pa bigyan ng offerings just to help you win the war. shallow as it may seem, trojan war still marked history. well, for the iliad. hehe.
"better for me, without you, to take cold earth for mantle..." -andromakhe.
ahaha. wala lang. super fun. what if i never went to pisay? want if i stayed at sbc? hmm... for sure naging kami ni adi. haha. then ni marty. pero hindi rin. tingin ko, being in pisay made my friendship with marty stronger. hmm.. pero doesn't really matter. hehe. pero if i never went to pisay, i would never meet, ahm, all the people i met. and siguro naging kikay girl ako. and si labli! hindi ko nakilala. hmm... but what if went back to sbc nung third year? hmm... ayaw. no way. narealize ko lang, kahit mahal ko ang sbc, mas mahal ko ang pisay. naks. deh, kasi ewan, kahit anong sabihin ko, sa pisay ko nakilala sarili ko. maybe. ewan. hehe. dugong bridgetine pa rin!
shit! ouch! natusok gums ko. ouch! damn! argh. ouch.
waw. almost three hrs na ako online. yeah. sulitin. hehe. bakit kasi wala akong 02jam dito eh. arrr naman. oh well... ayan, nawala na yung gana ko magpost. hehe. sige, magbabasa na lang muna ako ng iliad. yey! ^^,
ayan, hell week part 2. super maingat ako this week. kasi twice na umattack sakit ko and pag nag-attack ulit, kelangan ko na maconfine. whew. so no junkies this week, no beer, no smoke, no too much oil, no too much cholesterol, no too much stress... oops, mali, never mind the last no-no. haha. pisay toh man! you can't tell me that. haha. :P
gumawa nga pala kami ni labli ng RED DIARY. haha. bakit yun ang title? well, first of all, it's covered with red gift wrapper. and green minded si labli kaya naisip ko yun. tumawa kayo! jowk yun! ahaha. green-minded si labli pero ako nakaisip ng title na same as the movie with super obscene set up. oi, hindi ko napanood yun ha! asa kayo! ahaha. yak, naalala ko si adi, gusto daw nya manood ng hibla nung elem kami. yak! ahaha. ahahaha. teka. okay, tama na.
weee.. namimiss ko na ang sbc tkd. 2nd week without training. at dahil dito, hindi ako pwede sumali sa laban next week. Screw UPCAT! darn. amph. tae. i'd rather kick some butt than waste my timeon something i need to but neer really wanted. gets nyo ba ako? hehe. basta badtrip ako. gusto ko na mabugbog at mambugbog! super sayan mode dapat ngayon eh! amph. at hindi ko na ulit maala forms ko! at august na! soon enough, magiging september na! then october! wah!!!! no! tkd tkd tkd tkd. praning si zye. tkd tkd tkd tkd.!
...alive and kicking!
gusto ko gumawa ng movie review, pero... ahm... sige na nga! hehe. so eto yun, uhm, teka lang, toothbrush lang ako. :P.............. ayan. game. uhm, kasi parang mei couple (not yet married), tapos nagkaron sila ng super big fight. so for many weeks, nagpapakita sila ng kahit anong bitchy thing na pwede nila gawin para mainis yung isa. tapos one time, parang nagsoften up yung girl and niyaya nya yung guy (indirectly) na pumunta sa concert na i think they both liked. kaso hindi nakapunta yung guy, duh, they broke up, so wala syang obligation. pero the girl was expecting otherwise. akala nya pupunta yung guy. so nadisappoint sya and umiyak sya. aw. (nga pala, nakakatuwa si bona! palibhasa in love nakasmile sya all throughout. haha. :P) tapos ayun, nag-usap sila. then turn naman nung guy para magpakita ng move. kaso akala nya date ni brooke yung gwapo guy. so ayun, nahurt din sya. aw. sad talaga. tapos (omg!) sinabi na nung guy na mahal nya yung girl, kaso yung girl parang naguguluhan na. sabi nya "i don't think i feel the same way" blah blah. tapos super sad. pero ndi yan yung line na favorite ko ha! though same scene. ahaha. kami ni jason naman paulit-ulit namin sinasabi na "o di ba? tama kami! LOVE SUCKS!" tapos si alden smile lang ng smile. si bona talaga mei pinakanakakagagong smile eh. tipong pagtumingin ka sa kanya, masasabi mo kung ano/sino iniisip nya. ***. ahaha :P anyway, the last scene nung movie was the most kilig part. yak, konyo. ahaha. eh kasi nagwink yung guy sa girl tapos biglang sumigaw si jason ng "LOVE SUCKS!" eh ang lakas. haha. tapos mei couple sa likod namin, sabi nung girl "sshh!" ahaha. wala lang, i really like guys who wink. mei dating eh. wah! naalala ko tuloy nung few days after dorm akwe last year. haha. mei gwapong nagwink sakin. gwapo gwapo gwapo! :P pero moving on, the principle of impenetrability may be proved wrong. bahala kayo intindihin yan.
amph. argh. brrr.